Tuesday, May 28, 2013

I'm at a loss for words

I'm at a huge loss of words, I'm not sure what I should be feeling.. we went to Mom's Lung Dr. today and the news was not good... they wanted to admit her into the hospital.  and she refused... The Dr. took me aside and told me the test were really bad and Mom's not looking good at all.. and basically there isn't anything more that they can do for her.. Except steroids which without test they can't give it and if it did help it would probably help for a short period of time only and after that there is nothing else they can do...  So I knew it wasn't going to be good and I knew but I didn't know that she would have less than a year way less than a year she said.. She told me to prepare myself it could happen any day basically........
As I left down the hall the tears rolled down my face not knowing how to handle the bad news that my Mom would be leaving me soon. She is the only Rock left in this family.. My only close friend in the world, my true friend... I prayed immediately and ask Jehovah God for help to endure what was to come.......and give me strength. I would be the one to share the bad news with family members...I started having flashes of Mom not being here when I came to visit and it felt just horrible.. She doesn't want to be on life support or be re-vied  O lord, this is going to be the most difficult thing I have ever been through... I have tried for the last several hours to think sanely but can't... what ever that means... The doctor didn't tell Mom. I guess because she was being so difficult and I'm not sure that I should either.. We go to the regular Dr. on Thursday and I'm not even sure why. I don't know if he's going to be telling her or what...????????????????


      What I need now is prayers for endurance and strength.......So please my sweet friends send them off ... I would truly appreciate them....I made a wonderful tea cake this weekend, and of course I forgot the recipe...the cake is really nice in my opinion. It's a Apple Blackberry Cake... really yummy nice for Tea

     It's made in a Spring form pan... which I never used in my life... But I had recently bought one at Smart and Final Store... and it looked kind of cheapish, but It worked really nice...I always had thought in the past that maybe they would leak...lol....but it didn't happen........It was supposed to have more blackberries, but I only had a few and honestly it was fine...I spent the weekend crocheting... I made several items which I'm very happy with.....I will be posting them on my crocheting blog when I'm done here... I will bring the recipe next time I come... you will really like this one I'm sure............

Please visit and join my crocheting blog...on my way there to post my things I crocheted....


Hope to see you there...with love Janice...........


  1. Praying for you and your mom. I was just reading a devotion that spoke to my heart tonight, and thought it may help you too. The link is:
    I know this must be a difficult time for you. Prayerfully yours.

  2. Thank you Mrs. Smith I appreciate it very much...Blessings

  3. Hi Janice, I'm so sorry to hear about what you are going through. My own mother passed away in 1997 from complications of emphesymia, and I lost my aunt to lung cancer the next year and my father to liver cancer three years later. I wanted to give you my email address: dmarchetti@g-net.net If you would ever like to talk about your mom or if there is anything I could do to help in anyway please let me know. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. With Love, Delisa

  4. Delisa, thank you so much...I sure would love to just chat about anything..Knowing someone believes in the same things you do is a wonderful thing..!!!

  5. Oh Janice I'm so sorry to hear about your mother's diagnosis! We are sending many prayers out for her and your family and praying for the strength you will need to get through it.

  6. Thank you Laura, I'm going to need many of them for sure..

  7. Janice,
    I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. At a time like this, you will need strength and love. I will pray for that for you. I know you can get through this, you are a strong lady.

    I am thinking of you and sending love your way.