Wednesday, February 25, 2015


This weekend I stayed focussed on Taking my little Sweetpea to get a nail cut bath and the all the trimmings
I got a I thought a great deal for 53.00 dollars
Bath, brushing nails trimmed and buffed ears cleaned and teeth brushed conditioner to skin and hair
and some other things
She is all buffy and clean to the nines
She has truly been neglected since Mama.. I mean I gave her a bath at home
but none the others..
It was well deserved
I'm trying to refocus this week with all the things that have to be attended to with Mama and the 
got most of the top deck cleaned now.. which is lovely.
I was so horribly sick with one thing after another but thankfully I'm on the road to recovery 
and are hoping to stay well so I can get more done,,,
The time is just flying by faster than I can hang on to it...

I have been in the Garden at home which helps me to get my thoughts together as well...
I never knew this Garden had so many Calla Lillie's they are popping up every where this year..
I have always loved them.. I had some from my old house when the children were
growing up.  I had dug them up after my divorce and brought them to Mama's house..
but in the several years that I have lived at this place I saw a couple come out after I 
clean the garden out..
but this is at least four years now and they are every where.. big ones smaller ones as well.  They
must had planted them all over..
But good for me.. hehe

My kitty peeping out and the bird hiding around the corner.. 

Soon will have sweetpeas again and all the flowers
I can't wait for Spring to arrive
what about you.. 
I hope everyone is doing fine
thank you 
for all your lovely comments
I enjoy them and treasure them
Happy Wednesday 
with love 
stay focused

Thursday, February 19, 2015

A view..

 Misty photo.. 

Today I thought I would share a few of my Gold frame photos in my little hall way
off the living room as you enter 
into the rest of the house...

Seem's I can't have a blank wall what so ever.. 
it's just not me
funny how we become who we are and what we like and enjoy
They say, well I have been told I'm truly Victorian
meaning in their voice 
I have a busy house..

I rather like my busy house in my opinion, thank you very much
It just seem to grow and grow, the photos on the wall I'm talking about
Paintings from the past from Dad's truck
I had them for years never used them, then all of a sudden
I had a place for them
then came a few from the thrift store
then frames with no photos
and before you know it
my wall was full

Well I guess I'am Victorian
What are you...

With love 
ps Don't forget to visit my crocheting blog @

pss... it's really growing.. My Amarillo blub.. Pretty soon will see the flower..

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Missing Mama....

I just can't believe it's been almost one year since Mama left.. Come March 14, 2015.. Seems as if it was yesterday.  I visited her grave the other day and all the cones for the flowers were missing and all the things we put there.. I really want to get a head stone for her soon.. my Dad is burried there as well and my oldest brother but Mama for some reason never got a head stone.. But I intend to soon.. soon as I figure out the cost for the fixing of the house.. But anyhow to day Valentine Day made me think of her and how much I truly miss her and made me think as well there is nothing like your Mama... I have had many ruff days since she left. she was my one and only best friend in the world.. The person I turned to for everything good and bad.. I told my daughter so many things remind me of her.. the last five years I have spent much much time with her going here and doing this and so many times Mama would say O the heck with it.. lets go eat and shop at the Saver's thrift store.. She say I don't drink smoke on anything so why not.. I'd say well Mama if that's what you want to do it's your monie you worked for it. And off we'd go.. I miss those days so much.
And honestly nothing is the same.. Today this afternoon I sit in her house in complete quite the Cats roaming about sound less.. thinking I don't hear her and imagining in my mind her saying this or that.. I just can't help it I try not to think of it all to much.. but over and over it all goes through my mind  her coming from the hospital and with in days she drifted away into a colma like state.. but I keep remembering her looking at me from her room to the kitchen just looking at me.. I said Mama whats wrong she said O I'd like a little bit of moral support, I told her what Mama do you want me to hold you she said Yes I do.. So I did just that I walked into her room and lifted her a bit and sat on the bed behind to hold her as long as she wished so..
and then before I knew it each day that passed Mama drifted away.  We went from giving her regular medicines normally to pushing them into the side of her mouth, then crushing them up and putting them in a syringe.. To stopping some of them.. then nothing thats it.. by then she was in that colma like state.. I didn't have time to think about anything thing at those moments just caring for her.. she couldn't walk no more at first we lifted her into her wheel chair over and over then she just had to stay in the bed then we changed her bathed her like that.. to then we couldn't touch her body she said it hurt later to screams of pain.. Then she was leaving and we waited like birds on a fence with worry in our hearts and pain and in hope of her not suffering anymore.. even though we didn't want her to go we knew.  but drugs then came in and took over so she felt nothing.. and in the wee hours of the morning Mama was leaving forever the breaths got longer and shorter and I stood there holding her hand and telling her I was there not knowing whether she knew or not trying to be strong for everyone and my son sat next to the bed leaning over her lower part of her body.. Mama he said she is leaving us.. and as my Mama took her last breath my son cried and cried and I couldn't I couldn't ... I knew I had to take care of everything for her to the Last Mama's wishes.. So I called Hospice and told them and they came right away and helped me make phone calls they were the most awesome ever.. I keep thinking did I do enough for her I wished I told her more things.  even though through the last year we talked so much I feel like I forgot to say so much.. I don't know it's just silly I guess.. But I miss her more and more .. not less and less.. I hate being without her..My days seem empty and long ...

Wishing you all a lovely Valentine Weekend
with love 

p.s. just needed to vent a bit thanks for listening..

Thursday, February 5, 2015

Mornings in the Garden...

* ~ ` My new teapot set.. It was a steal really was... I had bid on one and lost and then this set came along for way less than the first which was just the teapot... I have always wanted this pattern as well... The tea cups were separate...But there is another teapot with a different shape but same Roses which are Just beautiful.. I'm a huge lover Of Roses.. I mean huge. I buy myself Roses all the time.. can't live without them...

* ~ `   But at any rate I love the little shape of this one more than the other shape.. It just seems more cozy like to me.. I love tea in the early morning out in the Garden.. we here in San Francisco have had some lovely days the last few ... This morning was a little hazy.. but it cleared up pretty much.. So I have been about in the Garden cleaning and I bought a few plants.. I'm so trying to keep my mind busy and off Of missing Mama... which I horribly do.. My best friend is gone and man let me say this I appreciate every moment of her even though we had some ruff days.. Mama would have loved this pattern as well.. I have loved this for I mean years and years..

* ~ ` Little pop bellies... just so silly cute.. Of course the creamer..

* ~ `  Sweet round sugar bowl..
 Royal Albert...Old Country Roses ... But this is made in Indonesia.. but I don't mind..

* ~ `  One of the new tea cups to match.. but I recently seen a photo and there are the cups to this.. but I haven't found one yet maybe in the future but at any rate these will do just fine for me they are all so lovely the tea cup is made in England..

* ~ ` Tea with me in the Garden.. pull up a seat and let chat a while.. My Garden photos.. a new Spring Garden arising from behind.. The birds are chirping in the trees running about from limb to limb.. Blue birds and little Yellow finiches.. saying soon soon it will be here...

* ~ ` New seat cushion for the old Iron bench.. maybe this year I will get it painted... 

* ~ ` Our new white Garden me and Isaiah   

I love mint don't you... I thought I'd put some in this hanging basket it doesn't grow to well in pots so will see the birds like to steal the straw from the basket and the moss for their nest...

           New lettuce... and later some Zucchini Lasagna... and fresh basil from the Garden.. 

Ready for the Oven.. .... no noodles.. Just used the Zucchini for them instead..

All done ... Ready to sit down and relax now it's been a long day in the Garden.. Hope you enjoyed your visit..