My baby doll...

Once Upon a time, once when I was a little girl I don't quite remember why and I don't remember 

where my Mama was...

But for some reason I went into her room and opened the closet ...

I went back into the kitchen and got a chair

to climb on..

and when I was looking in there I found two lovely dolls in the package like 

they were new..

I had wondered why Mama never gave them to me..

So of course I took them down and opened them up not knowing if I was suppose to...

but I did anyways..

Mama didn't get mad though, she just said she didn't know why she didn't give them to me

I believe my Grandmother had bought them for me..

Maybe I was too young and Mama waited for them to be with me later...

I remember the other one as well she was much smaller with reddish hair

but she got ruined with ink.. 

Someone other than me wrote on her face..

but this one I kept all these years.. 

She's been sitting in storage and now she can come out.. 

She herself is still in very good condition... minus

her clothing 

Back then she was dressed in Pj outfit.. a robe and pants.. with white shoes..

which I still have the bottoms and shoes..

the robe got ruin by battery acid.. 

So this outfit that's she is wearing is from 

a porcelain doll that had a broken foot that I had saved forever...

I found it all while I was cleaning out the bins

from the rest of the stuff from my storage..that was sitting in Mama's room

so I gave up the sweet broken doll and took her outfit for my baby..

I washed her hair and gave her a bath.. her hair was course so Vee said lets put this special conditioner in it 

and it helped it a whole bunch.. some experience..

some 50 years later giving my baby doll a bath combing her hair..

Getting her all dressed up in a new outfit..

I love her sweet face... Tiny nose and lips.. her pretty eyes..

We went out to visit the Garden..

and take photos...

We picked some Queen Anne's Lace for you

with some Purple daisy like flowers..

I hope that you like them and me..

I don't have a name for her.. I don't remember ever naming her

Suggestions.. Please..  

p.s.  It's been a hectic passed couple of weeks.. 

My oldest daughter tried to commit suicide and she almost succeeded ...

Good thing I had called her.. 

I knew something was wrong when she spoke to me..

but thank God she told me what she had done..She took over 20 pills.. 

that your only suppose to take one every 8 hours..

I had to send a 911 call to their from here.. 

All four of her children were home.. then would have been torn to pieces

if she had died specially there in the house..

they took her to the hospital and released her the next day.. go figure..

She is doing well now and realizes that she never will do that again

well I hope not..I pray not..She 

said when she seen and heard all the other people who are 

really crazy from drugs and other issues.. she said o no this is not the place 

for me..

but I pray she never goes back to that dark place again..

Thank God he aloud her to wake up..

She has panic disorder like me.. It's very tough to live with

specially the first several years which is where she is at.. With no help for her children

 and a jerk of a dad for the kids..

She had to quite her job she couldn't work no more and she's been hanging on the limb 

for months now but she kept telling me let me wait till the kids school is finished

but in the mean time she was going crazy with all the stress and down stairs lives the 

kids dads family and they just were giving her a hard time.

long story...

So on top of all the rest I'm stressed to the max.. with not much help either.. 

So my dearest blogger friends please send prayer for us to become ok

I wish you all a wonderful loving Friday and weekend to come..

with love

Janice.. 

Thank you for your support and love 

and sweet comments

p.s.s. I'm also sorry I can't always visit all the time..

Blessings