Checkin in....

*~ ` ( Good Evening... Yes I have been so busy with Mom's arrangements the burrial etc... It's done and over with and I have barely had time to Grieve about it.. There is so much to be done.. Tons of cleaning upstairs and down stairs is packed to the brim.. well we have gotten two loads out.. Thank God.. a friend has a huge dump truck that we can use.. and he is taking Mom's older car for the dumping fee's. I also have the huge storage to clean out as well and there is a dead line to meet... 

God is so good .. Mom's house is just a huge mess she never ever took care of it.. But the location is one of the best in the San Francisco area.. I hope and pray God continues to help me through.. I miss my Mama and have thought to many times to call her but I can't no more... I knew I would miss her from way before when the dr. told me she was dying... My mind went through so many things.. over and over.. as now.. but I'm so grateful she is not suffering.. She was in so much pain special the last days.. I felt so bad for my Mama I couldn't do anything to relief her.. finally they gave stronger meds.. and when she passed it was peacefully..
Me and my son was with her when she took her last breath.. It was a strange thing to watch.. Now trying to move forward is hard and trying to act like I'm okay is another story.. like I said in the beginning I haven't had time to greive about it.. maybe in the future.. though I have had moments of tears I just don't know.. Well I just wanted to give an update I will be busy for a while now cleaning .. and cleaning and cleaning.. I will stop in here and there..

with much love
Janice