Thursday, January 12, 2012
Dreaming and Wishing.....and thinking...
Well to start with this morning weight watchers is up and down...I can't considerate.. So I been going off and on....still trying though not going to give up..I'm hoping that some where along the line I will just kick in and fly...wink...
Well I'm at Mom's and I awoke around 6 am...And starting thinking how I wish I could have a small cottage home with a yard around it...maybe a two bedroom. Then I thought Mom's house is a two bedroom cottage but the garden is below in the back. But I'd really love to have a cottage on a flat property...but you just can't have everything. I can't decide what to do today, most likely I have to mustard up some strength and go do what I need to...I'm having difficulties with my daughter Vee...she is about to be 18 and is getting on my last nerves, like you would think I never taught her anything. But children these days don't seem to have much manners or respect. I feel sad at times and bad at other times...So I just try to tell myself one day she will understand what I'm saying to her. But in the mean time I have to find my own way alone. I have been spending the last few days trying to find strength to go to church alone...But just haven't gotten there yet. So I think much prayer is needed to receive help. The elderly sister that I study with came by with her daughter the other day. She is so thoughtful always trying to comfort Vee she dropped off a letter for her. Course Vee didn't read it ... I was thinking that maybe her daughter will help me as far as picking me up...I was thinking its so silly Church is like Three blocks away..But if you understand panic then you would understand the difficulty for me to get there alone...So I was thinking to ask her...then I thought well should I. . . So I just have to do it. all she could say is she can't then it's back to prayer again. Through my surfing this morning I found this scripture I think is was On a Blog called Vintage Rose.
You, God, are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
I really like it so I thought I would share it with you...I'm kind of in a wishy washy mood today. Yesterday I made these I thought delightful cupcakes, from Mary Janes Farm magazine, (there in the post below) Blueberry Ginger cupcakes, yummy...but today I feel idk what...lol....
Valentines Day is around the corner have to get busy and get the Tea Party plans finished and get busy...maybe I should just go home to finish up my laundry it looks like another good day to hang out clothes and maybe I should plant some seed in containers...spring will be here soon....wow I don't even know where winter is???