You thought it was over the storm...

     Here I’am again ....   My brother passed away yesterday early morning hours...  I want to say LORD what else...  I feel almost like we me and my eldest daughter are living in the storm of Job...  it is one thing after another.   It is just noodles.  I darn to speak what else.  I also lost my close cousin last month.  And this doesn’t speak of all the rest that goes on at the we call it The Blue house. (mamas house)  Lord, I feel like I need a miracle in Jesus name.  My brother died from abuse of drugs and alcohol.  A month after mama died he died and they revived him.  So he stopped everything he was doing drinking crack cocaine.  But eventually he went back to smoking and then drinking and was drinking like a fish.  He had a bad heart from all the abuse and was on ten ir more medicines.  I truly despise alcohol and drugs.  My oldest brother died from use of herion at 34 my father died of abuse of alcohol and cigarettes and I have many other family members who died from drugs and  alcohol abuse.  But I say it ends here please.  I don’t want no more LORD remove it from my life keep it far away from me.  I dont wan’t  to lose anymore family members for this reason.  I’m in a spiritual warfare.  To breaks the curse upon my family my children and grandchildren and generations to come.  The devil is a liar and you will not deceive me any longer.  Christ died for me for us to have life eternal with Him.  I refuse I refuse !!!!!    In Jesus name.   My brother’s death makes me want to preach the gospel to every living creature I come across more and more.  I’m more sadden not that my brother passed but that he died without being saved.  The bible says men died from lack of knowledge.  No understanding.  I want everyone to live in Him Jesus so they can feel joy and peace.  It is not about just going to church it is so much more than we think what we a lead to believe.  When He speaks in Luke 9:23 Saying, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.  It is that deny want you and put  me first do my will live my life go out into the world and save the people preaching the gospel.  Jesus is our model to make the Father known.  We were loved so much that He sent His only begotten son to pay the price for us.  He suffered beyondwhat you could imagine.  The details are so horrific that I just cried and want to give Him it all back by denying myself daily and picking up my cross suffering is part of the package but you receive joy and peace through it all.  He speaks saying in Luke 9:24  For whosoever will save his life shall lose it, But whosoever will lose his life for my sake, the same shall save it..  I give my life to HIM, gladly because He gave His for mine.  I surely do I want to walk in eternal life with Him...  and I want to save the people as many as I can.  Repent and pray for forgiveness and walk in Him fully not part way.  Walk away from the world and follow Him, Christ our Lord and savior..  RIP IN PEACE BROTHER.  WE ARE ASKING FOR DONATIONS TO HELP WITH HIS FUNERAL, WE DON’t have enough monies...  sharing the link here...  If your able, Thank you in advance.

https://www.gofundme.com/funeral-expenses-for-mike-stridder

  With Love Janice