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" I have a huge love of Victorian things, Lace, Depression Glass etc...I adore anything Roses and I love My Garden... I also love things From the fifties I just seem to have a love of all vintage things... I'm getting ready to start a new phase in my life ...And that's Moving into My Mama house. But it needs much work done before that can happen so I'm now spending my days cleaning and cleaning.. So bare with me as I go through this new phase in my life... Take the steps with me as I go down a new road to my new future " It's a way to express myself and share with you all..
with love Janice
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Thursday, July 24, 2014

Stored Up Treasure's In the Window....


      A window full of past treasures, what to do with them.. I like Mama's things but I truly don't need them.  I have so much of my own.. It's covered from top to bottom.


     There are a few things that I'm thinking to keep but all of it no, I can't. Why is it I feel so bad about
getting rid of her things... Mama loved Clowns, so there are quite a bit of little clowns. I considered keeping them but have no clue where I would put them..So I thought maybe someone in the family would want them..


     Now these two dark Green I call them candy keepers,. Though not sure what they were ever used for maybe just decoration.. But I want these I have always admired them for years.. and I'm sure when I wash them up they will be beautiful as can be....


     This will be the other item that I want to keep the honey colored glass, the tall piece.. and the Girl in the back.. It's in cream Green and burgandy colors.. I had a blue one but she got broke during all the moving I was so terribly sad .. but now I can have Mama's..


     I also love these candle sticks she has a few others in clear as well.. there are two and two glass horses those I don't know about yet.. You can see the things are dusty and dirty. I do believe I was the last one to clean all the glass and window and put it back. It's been about a good year..


     This piece is kind of nice as well but I have no place for this... lots of decisions for Mama's things.
But, I suppose I should do the same thing like I have done with the other things.. As everyone to come to the house have a bunch of it together and ask who wants what first then go from there.


    This kitty I cleaned her up and put her by the computer for now with paper and pen because I'm always looking for that.. she will suit the purpose for now..


     Going through paper I found so many little things Mama had saved I believe they were things that came in the mail perhaps..little tablets, cards book markers etc.. she saved it all

   
     Little Calenders..

    
     Christmas little papers, are cute .. these I kept.. I too like little things like this.. but I only keep a certain amount in my desk at home not tons of shoes boxes full .. with papers and things like this..



     And of course these are cute with sweet sayings... LOL I don't part of my is just as bad as Mama... I love her dearly and miss her even more. As I pass through her things I have shed many tears thinking and remembering the life we shared... Of course we had arguements but we shared many laughs and good times
shopping in second hand stores Goodwill's,  finding treasures together, going to lunch and dinners.. because she would always say I don't smoke drink etc... and I earned my monies so I'm intitled to it.. Love you Mama and miss you more... Good memeories in my heart even though the rest is a mess... I pray one day the Father above makes it all right.. I think I want it more for her memory than myself...

There are so many things involved and there are so many headaches.. I really need a big miracle to see me through..............

wishing you all a lovely Thursday
with love
Janice

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Cheap Medicine............... ?



I saw this. And I said to myself.. hum Laugh what is that. I don't seem to do much 
of that these days...
Then I thought how can I laugh what about
Seems silly but it's not I really haven't been laughing to much
seems I cry more than anything...
I might smile here and there about pretty things
but truly laugh and be happy about it
no...


Most of my days I feel like this... I don't kno what can make me laugh.. I feel I carry a heavy load
thought it would all go away after Mama died 
but I suppose because there is so much to do I feel over burdened
I have tried hard to leave it in God's hand's but no matter I still have to do certain
things....
Maybe if I wasn't 56 and broken I wouldn't feel that it's so difficult who knows
 I should be excited about Mama's house.. but really in true honesty it seems so far feched...
A big huge dream that I seem to be trying to accomplish all by myself
no one seems to have time to help
so it leaves it all on me...

Daisy's make me smile and feel good inside...


Did I ever tell you that I wanted to be a Ballet Dancer, In high school I danced for almost four years.
I loved it. That made me laugh and smile a lot.. I danced Ballet and Modern Dance.
And I preformed in a lot of places in San Francisco
In our Civic Center and our Museum The  DeYoung Museum.
It was funny because my Father would take me there all the time as a child on 
Sunday's after Church..The DeYoung Museum.
Memories ...
I loved preforming it was exciting and bright...
I won a scholarship for the summer and I remember being so happy
There was this famous Ballet dancer who was then 80 years old
She was teaching us a dance but with huge scarves
It was in a basement in a Church in Union Square of San Francisco
But barely into it my parents made me stop and  go up north to my Aunts house in 
the country which I loved, but, I felt this was more important and I was old enough to make my own decisions
but NOt according to them and they didn't see the importance 
of what I was doing
So sadly I did not get to finish my scholarship program...



Well life is such...
It has been rainning in San Francisco, I thought that I was dreaming last night but, nope
it was and the skies are dark and cloudy this morning...
I think I will spend the day going through Mama's papers she has tons to go through
and maybe do some more going through boxes because I want to prepare
for a small sidewalk sale to see what monies I can make.. 
Plus I have to rid of so much stuff...
So as I sit here drinking my morning Tea
I will be doing just that start in on a pile of paper's
Here's to you, wishing you a Grand day
full Of Love n Laughing
they say it's good
medicine
p.s. I think it to be but just to find that way to laugh is another story...
With Love 
Janice